Tuesday, 28 February 2012

Kaddush for Alice Lucille


My beloved great grandmother, who has taught me so much and shown me who I am
Who has acted as a bridge to the present and to the heritage I carry
Lucille, elegant and dignified even up until the end
One hundred and three years of a joyful life
Twenty five of which I give thanks to have been a part of
Only twenty five years to laugh on your lap
To play with your beautiful glass trinkets and learn the meaning of being careful
To sit quietly on your back porch and listen to the birds
To eat chocolates with you
To smell the flowers  
To take me to feed the ducks at Lake Merrit
To listen to your stories, new every time, to see the light in your eyes and your passions never forgotten
To eat yogurt out of the container with, giggling in the kitchen
To argue over who won’t do the dishes
To play hours of Canasta and Pinochle, I’m still waiting for you to teach me bridge
To go to the thrift store, to hear about your shoes
To hold hands at Fenton’s
To bring you a bouquet every time I visit
To pick imaginary flowers with you in your hospital bed, you could still see it was Baby’s Breath
I will never be tired of changing your light bulbs and watering your plants when you aren’t looking
I will never be tired of hearing your stories
I will never be tired of your calm house
And I tell you one last time, I was never bored, how could I be with so much life around me?
I have cherished every moment of these past twenty five years
And I swear to you
And I promise you
Every moment I live, no matter what joy or pain I will encounter
A small piece of my life will always be beautiful and perfect, because it is devoted to
The twenty five years I have had with you.

The last time I saw you, I thanked you for everything you have done for me. And you looked at me with a sudden seriousness, and you told me we were just the same. And I thank you for these words, too. I am honoured and grateful to be your great granddaughter. My GG. 

Saturday, 25 February 2012

I wish I had something more profound or interesting to tell you. I love it here, I really do. Experiencing open hospitality from everyone. Everyone's door is open, and they want you to eat their food!

I don't feel judged or like I am expected to do or be anything; I feel I'm welcome and encouraged to be myself.

Spending Shabbat with my new friend Maya's family. About to meet her grandfather, who speaks only yiddish. To Zfat tonight for a "spiritual retreat" and community volunteering. Feeling in love with humanity. Feeling strong in my previous beliefs and convictions, but not needing to prove anything. Planning a trip into the Negev desert to work on an orchard, then to the West Bank to learn about the other side of this strange relationship with colonization and displacement.

I am realizing how easy it is to practice Judaism from a secular and inclusive standpoint.

Love you all.


"All our dreams and ambitions involve us dying at some point. But it's weird because our fantasies are supposed to be ambitions. No matter what you want in life, house, money, love,  you're still going to die at some point, and our dreams should include that." -Justin

Sunday, 19 February 2012

Finally, I figured out how to change the blog settings so it's not writing everything (in English characters) from right to left. Here's a hand-written entry from:

Feb 12, 2012
At the Laundromat in NY

Things to do today: wash sleeping bag, sew Quebec patch on backpack, finish writing and sending postcards.

Observation: Traveling by plane makes me feel very vulnerable, mostly because I have nlittel or no ability to feed myself well. First, they take away any fruit or vegetables you may have. Now left with only processed foods, there are no grocery stores accessible from anywhere near any airport. Any nearby hotels or airport food courts, the food is all white breads, pork, high fructose corn syrup etc. I feel a bit like a fast food hostage.

Notice posted on a fence next to someone's house: DO NOT THROW GRABBAGE HERE

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Now, in terms of this trip here in Israel, I have to tell you, it is by far better than anything I ever could have imagined - mostly, I suspect, due to INCREDIBLE LUCK regarding the people I am sharing this tour with and the tour guides involved. I am on Bus 40; and by contrast, Bus 41 - taking (more or less) the same stops, seeing the same sights etc. is full of a lot more drama, unhappiness, sheer stupidity and other things I was expecting to experience and thus far have been totally spared these inconveniences.

I feel overwhelmed with gratitude several times a day. Also, squishy lovey feelings towards this fantastic group of peers I'm happily stuck with for 10 intense days.




More eventually, after the trip is over and I have more free time to use computers. So, so tired.


-Tzomi

Friday, 10 February 2012

NOOO!!! I LOST MY FAVOURITE HAT!! the one that's ten years old and my good friend gave it to me and i wore it almost every single day all summer and it was falling apart but it still worked and i need a hat in israel and it's gone!? now??? 12 hours before i fly out??? and they're gonna make me buy a new hat there if i don't show up with one? for the love of god cancel the trip, that hat is like a security blanket!

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

T-4 days

Set to arrive in Tel Aviv Monday, Feb 13 2012, at 5:15AM. 


Better start packing.